Thanks T!!!
1. WHAT ARE FOUR JOBS THAT YOU HAVE HAD IN LIFE?
Bagelby's was my first job, then I worked at a law office in IF, then at Tendoy Elementary as a Kindergarten aid for 2 years, and NOW I'm a mom!!!! ;)
2. WHAT ARE FOUR PLACES WHERE YOU HAVE BEEN?
This is where I look truly pathetic! Vegas! - AZ (not for fun though)- Cali and Canada (in HS)
3. WHAT ARE FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE FOODS?
Chocolate!! Spagetti, Cake, and Mandrin Chicken from Mandrin House!
4. WHO ARE FOUR PEOPLE YOU WOULD LIKE TO GET TO KNOW BETTER?
My mom, I wish she were here so I could DRILL her with all of the questions I have for her. Katy- I know her past, but I wish we lived closer so I could just hang out with her,- all of the time! - My grandparents, I'd like to know more about their past- and my dad...I love to hear his stories.
5. FOUR REASONS I LOVE BEING ME?
My hubbs! My kids! My famliy! My experiences!
6. WHAT ARE FOUR CLASSES YOU WISH WERE OFFERED TO YOU THAT YOU COULD PARTICIPATE IN RIGHT NOW?
Violin- I want to learn it again, probably need a money managment course- that would be boring though. - Cooking- and gardening.
7. WHO ARE FOUR FRIENDS OR RELATIVES THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO TAG? Katy, Nicole, Doug and Shanny, Karianne - and anyone that I may have missed!
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Tagged!!!
Monday, April 28, 2008
Picture Time...
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Always behind...
SO- I was babysitting my darling little niece yesterday and marveling at how she and my daughter get SO lost in their own little worlds. I literally handed them some old 'onesies' and baby jammies to dress their dolls in...and they were SILENT for almost 3 hours!!! I couldn't believe it! It made me think about how caught up in life I can get. All day long I was stressing about everything I could possibly conjure up in my mind. The always - imperfect- state of my house, the term paper and summaries I have due next week,- and the upcoming comprehensive final, - how I really NEED to spend more time working with Clinton on homework and reading, the growing weeds in my yard (already!) - bills, what's for dinner, I need to go to the store, call my grandma, find Cara's shoes, feed the fish- AHHH! Why does life always seem so complicated? Then I realized, it's the way I'M perceiving life that makes it complicated. Sure, all of those things need to be done- and will always need to be done. But- I overload myself into becoming so overwhelmed, I feel like shutting down and then I don't accomplish much except for worrying. I was talking to Clint about this last night and he told me to not "worry about it so much"- simple enough. How do guys always think so 'one-dimensional'? Initially, I thought- "Yeah right..I'll just NOT worry". But really...- I think he's right. I NEED to NOT worry and I NEED to put that and ONLY THAT at the top of my list. Maybe then, everything else will just fall into place and I won't have to suffer a heart attack at the tender age of 27. Brilliant, isn't he? I tell you- it's those little epiphanies that give me the strength to make it through the bad days. - Thanks Hon. ;)
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
New Find!
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Inspiring Story...
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Only time will tell...
We were really hoping this whole "blood in the urine" thing was over and done with, but apparently it isn't that easy. Through the week I've continued to see spots, he's told me at random times that his "pee-pee was red at school." But I thought it was just trying to heal and we would see it eventually teeter out. No such luck. Yesterday was as bad as the first morning. We went back into the docs and they decided it was more than just a bruise- they think he has a torn ureter. How that gets better...I don't know. And wouldn't it be prone to infection if it's 'down there'? All good questions for the docs I'm sure. Anyway, we have to "wait and see" if anything happens over the weekend. If it doesn't get better they want to catheterize him. (NOT fun.) Just to make sure it's NOT coming from the bladder or kidney. But I'm afraid that would only injure him more. This morning it was worse than EVER. I'm not sure that the docs understand how bad it is. Of course every time we go to give a sample it looks clean. Then we come home and the clots and blood appear again. I don't know-we're kind of at a stand still. We keep waiting for it to get better, but it's not...so then do we cath him (and take the chance of tearing it more?) - Or do we continue to wait?
The joys of parenthood.
But- on the bright side, Clinton continues to BE Clinton. He doesn't seem to have any pain. Our biggest hurdle is getting him INTO the doctor. The kid has developed a serious case of "doctor anxiety" since his surgery last fall. I'm just hoping that fear won't be magnified by a blood draw and a catheter. Only time will tell...that seems to be one of Clinton's biggest themes. ;)
Well, last might I got to go scrapbooking with my sis-in-law Shannon. SO fun! I haven't been in such a long time... it was awesome to get SO much done!! The only bad part is I get in there and gain about 100 new ideas- that doesn't help with "getting caught up" at all. But it was great none-the-less. I'm hoping I can finish my project this weekend- that's a pretty ambitious goal, but again- Only time will tell. ;)
SOTD- I have a couple of new ones that I've been trying out. Derrick told me about a Stone Sour song called ZZyzxx road (sp?) It's a lot calmer than I thought it would be coming from those guys. It has some pretty good guitaring goin on too. But- in all reality I'm still in my Linkin Park/Blue October phase. - Clean versions of course. B.O. has one that I'm diggin on- It's called "A Quiet Mind"- liking that. And just about anything from LP is great, as long as the screaming is kept to a minimum. - Not a huge fan of screaming- but I do LOVE their overall sound. I just downloaded "Faint" and "With you"-(the Reanimation Remix) so those 2 are on the top 10 most played on the Ipod. ;)
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Health Scare
Well, I won't go on- and I'm trying my best to keep details to a minimum. But, the point to my rambling is to illustrate how quickly priorities can change. In an instant I was no longer worried about Clinton missing the bus, Cara getting warm clothes on, me getting to class on time- I was worried about Clinton's health, his life. (By the way- he's OK- it was something completely different- that after a couple of different opinions, ended up being exactly the problem)- but it brought me right back to those "bad days" in the hospital. When all I cared about was making it through the day with him. Now I take everyday for granted. I'm so blessed to have my kids. So blessed. I can't imagine being without them now. I HATE seeing them in pain. I was so glad to have Clint here-close to us. It really put things into perspective for me, Clint too. He and I used to be so much more involved in what life was really about. Family- trying our best to do what's best. We've since then drifted away into the more- less important- parts of life. Today gave us a reminder. Not only us but our dear family was so consumed with worry. I was on the phone ALL DAY. He's such a loved little boy. Everyone has a soft spot for Clinton. I'm so glad he's feeling better and he's reminded us about how precious health is- again! ;)
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Randomness..
Today has been surprisingly,-completely relaxing. (I know Sunday's are supposed to be the "day of rest" and all-but it rarely seems that way for me.) There's always the upcoming school/work week to worry about, and finishing homework-doing laundry-ect... it usually makes me cringe. Even this morning as we were all getting ready for church, it was strangely peaceful. No screaming kids, no endless nagging to go to Primary, no spilling all over church clothes 5 minutes before walking out the door...none of it. And through Sacrament, I kept waiting for it to come, the smashing of someones head into a pew, or not sharing of snacks that makes one or both of them scream...again nothing. Matter-of-fact after the talks were over and we had closing prayer, I realized I'd been in such deep thought about how wonderful and loving the day was- I hadn't HEARD the talks! I reassured myself by realizing that I had probably learned a much more valuable lesson- taking time to appreciate the present... and also soaking in the peacefulness the day provided. It's just so nice to feel truly rejuvenated when beginning the new week.
Things are still up in the air about Clint's work. We are determined to try everything we can here before sending him long haul. He had a promising encounter with a local company on Friday and we are PRAYING they call on Monday to offer a job. It would likely be long hours at work, but at least he'd be able to come home at night and share dinner and/or bedtime with us. Hopefully it will work out. ;)
Cara gave me a bit to ponder on this morning. I was reading out in the living room at about 8:00 this morning when I heard quiet sobs coming from the hallway. I knew it was her and tried to quiet her before she could wake Clinton. She threw her arms around me and whispered something in my ear. I couldn't hear her at all and had to ask her about 3 times to repeat herself. I asked her if she had a bad dream (as this usually is the case) but she told me 'no'- she said
"I miss my grandma Joan."
-For those of you that don't know grandma Joan, she is my mother - she also died 8 years ago.
I didn't think I heard her correctly. We have talked about Grandma Joan, but lately haven't said much. She again told me that she missed her and that she wanted to go to "her house." I then tried to comfort her -she was still quietly crying- by telling her that we were already, in fact, IN her house. That the house we are living in was grandma Joan's house before she went to Heaven. That calmed her as she thought about it, and she dropped the subject after stating,"I just love my grandma Joan."
I wasn't sure what to make of that, still am not sure really. I've always believed that children could pass back and forth between the veil. Especially at night or while sleeping. It's something I gained a testimony of when Clinton was in the hospital and sedated 20 hours of the day. I knew at times he was not "with me" in spirit. And at those times I was incredibly relieved. I have never , though, had any such "feeling" with Cara. Until this morning.
It could just be wishful thinking, of course. I've always grieved the fact that my mother would never get to be "a grandma" in the Earthly sense. I'd never get to watch her interact with my children. But, the feeling that possessed me at the genuine nature of Cara's words made me immediately realize that even though I may not see it, my mom does "know" my children. Probably better that I do. The Spirit was strong within me- and the thought of Cara visiting with her, or even just "knowing" of her- who she's named after -(Cara Joan)... brought me solace. It was an interesting few moments, at very least.
SOTD- I've been in a mellow mood the past few days, maybe it's the beautiful weather putting me at ease. I don't know, but I love the song "Pieces" by Red. They are a fairly new band Derrick introduced me to, that I have grown to love. They're Rock- mostly. But there are a few songs on the record that are soft and... soothing almost. They are a mix of Linkin Park (the rock-techno aspect)/ One Republic ( for the Piano and strings intertwined within a good beat)/and Dashboard Confessional (vocals). I really like the CD much to my surprise. I don't know why I am so surprised- Derrick has never steered me wrong. He hit the nail on the head this time though. I LOVE LOVE LOVE rock music blended with Symphony. I used to play the violin and much appreciate the difficulty behind it. So this for me is the perfect blend of flavors-if you will. ;)
Thursday, April 10, 2008
RE: Books, Books, Books...
OK- so I may have fibbed a little bit about the netlibrary site being totally free. I got online to browse through some of the titles of the PDF books and they want you to register to gain access to the site. It's 8.95 a year. BUT- for those of you like me, that are just interested in the audio book sector anyway (I couldn't just sit at my computer and read)- those links are free. I am currently downloading Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte. -Very excited about that by the way. - So- sorry for the mix up, but I hope to find some more classics that I've always wanted to dive into. Happy Searching!!
SOTD- It's a Blue October day for me today, the 2 songs that have been spinning are "Quiet Mind" and "Calling You.' "Quiet Mind" is mellow, lax sounding. And "Calling You" is just cute. The words are sweet and they remind me of my hubby when he's away from home. - There, now you really know why I like it so much...I'm a mush, ok?
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Books, Books, Books...
Spring Cleaning...
Well, it has begun. That time of year when I can't stand having anything extra inside the house. Although, I could be a little premature compared to other years- it's still to yucky outside to put toys,plants, ect.. outside. But- I can't take it anymore! It seems like I spend hours sorting through things and compiling them into different categories (Garbage, DI, hand me downs, storage,ect.) and I turn around to have to do it again. AHHH! I got to thinking about this the other day after a trip to our favorite dollar store, I went in for 2 things and came out with 3 bags!! WHY do I do this to myself?!?!? It's JUNK!! Cara was there with me and of course- that doesn't help things, every time she'd find a coloring book or a little doll, I'd say-ok- but that's it! She came home with 5 things! I know that doesn't sound like much-5 bucks- 5 toys- but in a house where we should be saving money and getting RID of toys, it's RIDICULOUS! The worst part of it all is- there's no one to blame but myself! SO- I'm making an April's resolution- no more spending and no more buying of crap. That's it. I'm actually kind of excited...I think once I get the hang of it- it will be MORE gratifying to do WITHOUT. Wish me luck! Here's to cutting back!!!
SOTD- I've had a lot of people ask me about "The Sound of Pulling Heaven Down"- which has quickly become one of my favorites. It's by Blue October. The words are dramatic and haunting- and I just LOVE Justin Furstenfeld's (the lead singer) voice. Happy listening! ;)

















